Giving it a Nudge

   Today I have put the ball into motion. I called the Doctor and made an appointment to get my knee checked. I called a Doctor that I got a few references from. He is a good Orthopedic surgeon. My appointment is for Monday in the morning. I am a little nervous but very anxious. It is past time that I took care of this. I have been hurting so much recently, that I just need to get it taken care of.

   I am scared that the doctor will tell me I need surgery. I would prefer not to have surgery. When I was younger I though that my scares were so cool, now as a grown women, I prefer not to have any new ones. The ones I have now have enough stories to tell. Ha ha! Not to mention I am scared to death of needles. There is a reason I have no tattoos. And finally, the pain and recovery. I would be out of work for a while and when I went back to work I would have to take it easy. With this will come my limitations and foundries which will be clearly layed out for me. I already have a good idea of my limits, and still I step over them. This time with having them layed out before me in the way they will be layed out, I will have no excuse for when I over step them. I can no longer use my age, skill, work, or simply my yearning to participate as an excuse. I will have a permanent reminder. On the other hand, I will not be in as much pain. I won't have to use my cane weekly just to walk around. I will at least appear to be my age, and might even feel it again.

   Say a prayer for me on Monday. Not only about the news that I may receive, but about the way I am able to handle it. I hope every one has a good day.

   Tomorrow I will pick up a package for my daughter, eat lunch at a new place, and enjoy the company of an old friend. What will you do with your day tomorrow?

Forever,
JD

Pain, it reminds us we are alive

Yesterday I pulled a double, which for me is more like a triple. I work two jobs. I do home health care, in which I am self contracted, and then I work for a retirement home. At the retirement home I work third shift, from 10 p.m-6 a.m. I love my job, and love the people I work with. I especially love the Alzheimer's unit. They can be so sweet, and even when they re a hand full, I still can't be mad at them. I know it is simply the disease and they are just as frustrated as I am. I have come to know many of the residents on a more personal level. They have met my daughter, and when I have down time I will sit and visit with them. I know they get lonely. It is sad to see that many of their families don't come visit with them.

   I am coming to the realization that I will not be able to work this job for very much longer. I have a bad knee, my left one. I have had trouble with it since I was very young. A few years ago I re injured it playing a game of baseball with other coaches. I was the assistant coach for my daughters t-ball team. Since then my knee has been very touch and go, and will give me trouble just from being on it to long. It doesn't even need to be hit or bumped. Yesterday I pulled a double at the assisted living home. By the tie I got home to sleep, I had been on my feet and working for twenty three hours. I then slept for six hours, and went back to work for eight. Today i am in so much pain that I can hardly move. I actually sat down and cried for a moment. I realized that every day after work, my knee hurts to a degree. Sometimes it is just pressure. That day, I over did it. It is a common thing to pull a double from time to time, but I can't seem to do it. I am being forced to recognise my foundries and abide by them.

   With this new recognising, I have come to a conclusion that is hard for me to admit, but I know it will be for the best for myself and the future I am working so hard for. i am going to make a doctors appointment to find out what is wrong with my knee. I will then also start trying to find a job that will be less strain on my body. I am thinking of passably applying at a few of the local schools. I hate to leave the assisted living, but I simply can not take the pain any more. It is time for me to stop causing more damage to myself and except my boundaries.

Forever,
JD

Welcome to a day in the life of Jo

Hello dear followers, and welcome to my blog. Over the next ten weeks I will be doing my best to keep you entertained and enlightened, all while earning a good grade. Ha ha! I look forward to the feed back I receive from the topics I write about. I also look forward to the fabulous blogs I will be following as well.

My coffee this morning was wonderful and hot with a hint of white chocolate. What do you drink in the mornings?

Forever,
JD

Blogging

This is my first time to blogg. So I am not sure what to write here. So I will tell you about some recent events.
   I recently aquired a new niece. She is so tiney. I am working on crocheting a blanket for her, and whipped out a new bon hat in an hour. She is names after me. I am a proud Auntie. My daughter loves her.
   I love to crochet and knit. I am a unique individuak. I march to the beat of my own drumm. I am hoping to make it through these 10 weeks of school and achieve everything I hope to when I am done.


Sorever,
JD