Today I have put the ball into motion. I called the Doctor and made an appointment to get my knee checked. I called a Doctor that I got a few references from. He is a good Orthopedic surgeon. My appointment is for Monday in the morning. I am a little nervous but very anxious. It is past time that I took care of this. I have been hurting so much recently, that I just need to get it taken care of.
I am scared that the doctor will tell me I need surgery. I would prefer not to have surgery. When I was younger I though that my scares were so cool, now as a grown women, I prefer not to have any new ones. The ones I have now have enough stories to tell. Ha ha! Not to mention I am scared to death of needles. There is a reason I have no tattoos. And finally, the pain and recovery. I would be out of work for a while and when I went back to work I would have to take it easy. With this will come my limitations and foundries which will be clearly layed out for me. I already have a good idea of my limits, and still I step over them. This time with having them layed out before me in the way they will be layed out, I will have no excuse for when I over step them. I can no longer use my age, skill, work, or simply my yearning to participate as an excuse. I will have a permanent reminder. On the other hand, I will not be in as much pain. I won't have to use my cane weekly just to walk around. I will at least appear to be my age, and might even feel it again.
Say a prayer for me on Monday. Not only about the news that I may receive, but about the way I am able to handle it. I hope every one has a good day.
Tomorrow I will pick up a package for my daughter, eat lunch at a new place, and enjoy the company of an old friend. What will you do with your day tomorrow?
Forever,
JD
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